Having the Flu SUCKS. (Den+Est)

[eesti]

Mati was just so small and warm, and the little darling started falling right back asleep in his arms. He nuzzled against the fur, nearly holding his breath, waiting for Mathias to just speak up. Eduard had to bother the guy when he was sick, didn't he? That was when he realized maybe he should worry instead about how he'd most likely get whatever was making the other so sick. All for the price of a stupid little misguided kiss, he'd be the one tomorrow passing out in the hallway and then someone would take advantage of him. That was just karma.

And then Mathias did begin to talk, and his stuttering nervousness was something Eduard could definitely relate to. The Scandinavian sounded just a bit too excited, and... well, more than just a bit excited. Eduard normally would have protested the quip about Swedish being just some form of Danish but... it wasn't the right time.

He curled up a bit more as he listened to Mathias struggle for words.

That was bad, wasn't it, if he'd done something to nearly make Mathias simultaneously speechless and unable to stop talking?If this had been any other time, if he hadn't just kissed Mathias and was directly responsible for forcing all this anguish and awkwardness on them, Eduard would have smiled and laughed at his rambling. And if he was more romantic, more outgoing, he'd smile, laugh, and cover the Dane's lips with his own again to make him stop rambling. This wasn't a Disney movie! Kissing him again and more right now would be bad and result in a restraining order, probably.

Then he just pointed out Eduard had kissed his lips, and there was clear guilt on the Estonian's face.

"You don't have to go through the trouble of teaching me Danish..."

What else was he supposed to say? Yeah, he knew that it hadn't been the right language when he spoke to the other man in Swedish but he never expected for Mathias to pick up on it! But he did, so, all that meant was Eduard had an amazing Swedish accent, right? Maybe now he even thought that Eduard was Swedish...

"I-I'm from Estonia. A... A kiss like that, it's just... my culture."

There. Mathias could no longer get mad over that, could he? ...He was Danish though, what did he know about cultural sensitivity?...

His heart skipped a beat when he realized Mathias explained the situation as sweet.

Sweet? Was it really?

Eduard's entire problem, the entire reason he was so awkward right now was just he didn't know a thing about romance. Whatever sort of sorry kiss that had been when he pressed his lips to Mathias', how could it be considered sweet? Whenever he was attracted to someone or his mind went vaguely in the direction of companionship, he would always freeze up and never do anything about it until the person just moved on and Eduard didn't see them again. That had to be for the better, since apparently if he was left alone in close proximity to someone he liked who was currently vulnerable, he'd act out.

Mathias rambled on more, and Eduard chewed the inside of his own lip. Whenever it seemed like he was at the end of a sentence, he'd just pause and move on, dragging and twisting Eduard's emotions a full multitude of different directions at once.

He wasn't ready for Mathias to move him around however, and he clutched Mati a bit tighter. Not allowing him to be squished between the two super-powered teenagers, Eduard made sure the kitten was okay for a second before he glanced up to notice Mathias was staring at him again.

His eyes widened at the kiss, no matter how short it was.

Snapping out of his momentary stupor, he rested his head against his own shoulder while suddenly becoming interested again in Mati's well-being. It was nearly as if he didn't care for the shift in positions or didn't notice it, still dozed off, while Eduard struggled to accept his new position on the Dane's lap.

It... was a little rude for Mathias to be poking him though! He glanced back up, looking over the rims of his glasses at Mathias' face.

"Cheer up?... N-no, I'm okay..."

Since Mathias wasn't asleep, Eduard's shyness was kicking back in. He fidgeted around a bit for a second before reaching up and removing the cloth from Mathias' forehead before it fell, setting it down on the bed.

One of his arms cradled Mati while Eduard lifted the other one.

Slowly and almost gently, he grabbed on to Mathias' hand. He cupped his own fingers around the other student's, effectively stopping him from poking his nose any longer. For a few moments, his fingertips just testingly ran along the Dane's skin, trying to see how it felt to hold someone's hand. Mathias' hand was so warm--his whole body was, Eduard fretted again that maybe he had a fever--and Eduard wanted to keep his own just where it was forever.

"You umn..."

He glanced back up at Mathias, trying to steal the Dane's attention as he laced their fingers together.

"You should go to sleep.. I'll be here when you wake up."

Being this close to Mathias just made him... happy. He could feel the teen's every breath against his skin, before leaning in a little closer to rest lightly against his chest.

"Unless you don't want me to be, I mean... I could always sing you a lullaby to help you sleep..."

Eduard regretted it the moment he said it. He loved singing, and he was good at it, but he never sang for anyone else and he never sang alone. As long as he sang something he was comfortable with in Estonian and the Dane actually fell asleep this time.... Yeah, he could handle that! He looked at Mathias expectantly, wishing Mathias would lay back down so he could get better already. It was just a shame that Mathias was sick, because he could have stayed like this forever if only he wasn't worrying about the other man's health.

"Hey, Mathias... You just have to promise, next week, when I get sick from taking care of you this week, you'll take care of me."

[MATHIAS ANDERSEN]

“I can teach you Danish... I bet you’ll be very good at it too, at least from what I’ve heard of your Swedis—Are you sure?” He realized that he cut off his own sentence with his suddenly curiosity about the other student’s culture, “I- I mean, if it was it seemed a bit—Ah… never mind.” He shook his head in an attempt to get rid of the ensuing confusion. But he found that it wasn’t working in the slightest, and he wanted to slap himself for allowing Eduard to confuse him so easily. Why did Eduard have to be such a confusing individual anyway?

“I want you to stay.” Mathias stated suddenly, as soon as Eduard mentioned him going to sleep, even though he already confirmed that he’d still be around when Mathias woke up, Mathias still couldn’t help but reaffirm what he was saying so that Eduard knew that Mathias wanted him to stick around. On top of that… well, Mathias had always hated being the dorms alone for any given reason. It was always so quiet during the day, especially because so many students were in class, and there wasn’t any chattering filtering through the walls, and Mathias really hated feeling lonely, and it was like one bad cycle he really didn’t want to think about, “But you don’t have to if you want to go to class or something.”

Although Mathias would’ve preferred for Eduard to stick around, he really would’ve, he knew Eduard probably had better things to do then watch him be sick and sleep, thus allowing himself to get sick, and continuing the sick epidemic all around the school. Plus Mathias would never wish his flu on anyone else ever. Poor Eduard would’ve probably fainted if he had to mix more than a day of class. Mathias was almost certain that any class Eduard had missed this school year was more than likely just because of him. Maybe he was a bit arrogant-sounding saying that the only reason Eduard missed school was because of him, but for some reason he couldn’t help thinking it.

He suddenly gripped onto Eduard’s hand a bit tighter, and placed the back of it against his cheek, not even realizing when Eduard had grabbed a hold of his hand in the first place. Eduard’s skin against his cheek felt somewhat blissful. Eduard’s hand’s seemed to be significantly cooler than his own, and even as Mathias, who had hands that were much warmer—continued to hold onto Eduard, it was like the coolness never vanished, and for some reason or the other, Mathias really liked that.

Mathias pulled forward and lightly rested his cheek on the side of the other’s head, and allowed himself to shut his eyes for a moment, before Eduard mentioned something about a lullaby, in which case Mathias’ eyes fluttered open slightly again, and a small smile covered his lips.

“You’d sing for me?” Once again, Mathias’ voice was much quieter than it was normally was. In fact it was almost a whisper, “Are you sure you’d want to?” He’d always thought that the Estonian was a shy person. Like always. Mathias couldn’t think of any times he had ever seen the Estonian with anyone else. Sure they didn’t have very many classes together, (In fact gym class was the only one.) and Eduard was in the typical sidekick courses, whereas Mathias was in the hero classes. On top of that, Mathias had to run an errand one time, which had sent him all the way up into the hallway that the majority of the advanced placement classes were, and to no one’s surprise, Eduard was sitting towards the front of the room, in the corner, so Mathias figured that that was probably how most of Eduard’s classes were, so these were the reasons he and Eduard didn’t cross paths all that much… but even so, during lunch, Eduard always seemed to be sitting alone… at least the times Mathias saw him at lunch. Other times, Mathias had no idea where he ran off to. Mathias mentally slapped himself for never sitting with the poor kid before.

He did understand how it felt to be alone for a long time, and while he wasn’t exactly sure what it was like to have online friends, he did know that there was no way that it could work the same way as a friend in real life did. At least he thought that actually being able to give someone a hug was a lot easier… but either way, that wasn’t the point. He still regretted never having talked to Eduard before- hand. Eduard wasn’t a bad person… heck, he was a really nice person once you got past all of the levels of cute awkwardness possessed! It still seemed like the kid almost never talked to people though. Maybe could help get him out more! Or if not that, as least hang out with him so he didn’t have to rely only on the computer for companion ship.

“I think I would enjoy that a lot…” He took his free hand and placed it on Eduard’s back, gripping loosely onto Eduard’s uniform shirt, “I bet you are a good singer too…” He shut his eyes again, before he realized that sitting upwards like this and practically falling asleep while leaning on Eduard would probably not be all that comfortable for him. Not only that, but the poor kitten laying in the very small space in between him and Eduard, would probably be smoothed if Mathias moved around anymore at all.

So instead, Mathias ended up removing his hand from Eduard’s back a moment, before he slipped away a bit and pulled Mati into the small area of mattress that stuck out from the sides of his pillow. The cat once again adjusted himself quickly, before drifting off to sleep quickly again. Oh how Mathias wished his could do it that easily. Letting out a chuckle, Mathias slipped himself away from Eduard a bit, and fell back onto the pillow, suddenly feeling rather empty without Eduard there to lean against, with his sort-of cool-warmth.

Knowing that Eduard was probably going to get frustrated with Mathias’ tugging of him around, Mathias pulled on Eduard’s arm, pulling him down next to him. He then wrapped his arms around Eduard’s waist and grinned to himself.

“Now you have to sing to me, and I’m not going to let you go until you do, got it?” He shut his eyes once again, (His eyelids were getting heavy as hell, really they were.) before adding rather quickly, “I definitely will take good care of you, got it?” After all, getting good-night kisses from an attractive Estonian student counted as good care didn’t it?

[eesti]

"But... but maybe I should finish learning Swedish first... It's been hard because I'm not taking classes here or anything. I have to do with things online, and... ...Am I... am I sure you mean that the kiss didn't mean anything? I don't know, umn..."

What was he supposed to say to that? He had confessed that maybe he had a crush on Mathias... what else did he need to say? Him having a crush wasn't even a 'maybe' type thing anyways. He definitely did! Every time he saw the Dane, his heart sped up and he felt the strangest tugging in his heart that he knew was adoration. But did he really have to hide his crush? Mathias didn't seem to... mind that Eduard liked him. He even complimented Eduard and said nice things about him, and that was more than he ever imagined any crush of his would say.

It was just better not to finish whatever he was rambling about yet, though. Mathias seemed to move on well enough, so he did too.

Mathias might have called his actions sweet not too long ago, but it was him who was being sweet when he asked Eduard to stay. Slowly, the Estonian began to nod in agreement. The Dane just had really good timing, since he got sick during gym and Eduard hated gym anyways... Timing was everything! Since he got in to the dorms though, it hadn't occurred to him at all to head back to class. He was rather fine where he was and clinging to the Dane.

"I'll stay with you. It's okay. I have... Nearly perfect attendance. They won't even notice! And you're really very sick... so, it would be more irresponsible of me to run away and leave you like this."

If he did leave, there might never be another opportunity like this anyway! He'd miss a couple of days if it meant spending them with Mathias. It would be better if the Dane felt better, but Eduard could make due with what he had.

With Mathias touching Eduard's hand to his cheek, the Estonian tightened his own grip on the tiny kitten between them. He'd never been this close to any boyfriend or person before, even if Mathias wasn't his boyfriend per say. Just being this close to a person was... nice. Especially when Mathias got even closer and was resting against his head. Now that just felt.. nice.

"Hn? Y-yes, sure, I'll sing for you... If it will make you get to sleep."

It was hard to hear him when he asked if Eduard was sure he wanted to sing.... He knew that he was a very good singer, but he was a little lacking in confidence when it came to singing by himself. Mathias was just a Dane though, what would he know about amazing singing? Eduard's heart just kept melting every time Mathias did something little to get them closer. Resting on him, grasping his shirt, Mathias' breath on his cheek... All of it. He loved all of it.

He finally looked back at Mathias once the Dane pulled away, allowing him to take Mati and set him to the side. It made Eduard smile widely when the kitten shuffled around and fell back asleep, and he made sure to crane over the Danish man's lap to be able to pat Mati on the head one last time. It was a lot less warm without Mathias to lean on anymore, and that much, he did miss terribly... Thankfully, the other pulled him down in to the bed as well, and Eduard was able to catch him grinning as he proclaimed he wouldn't let the Estonian go.

Part of him never wanted to sing for the other, just so Mathias wouldn't let him go. He cradled himself in close to Mathias' side, placing his chin on the other teen's shoulder. There was a bit of fidgeting, unsure what he should do with his hands and arms... His left arm somehow ended up on Mathias' chest, trying not to feel tired himself. He did stay up till around three every morning anyway, always running on four or five hours of sleep, so if he was sedentary and not doing anything it was easy to slip away.

"Hmnn..."

His fingers tapped against Mathias' chest, his blue-green eyes scanning over every inch of his face. It was hard when they were so close to not want to kiss him again... But Eduard tried really hard to behave himself! He really did, but well, he was just so socially awkward that he didn't know what quite to do or how to handle himself so... He reached his hand up instead, touching Mathias' cheek again to try and pull his face down closer. The worst that could happen would be Mathias would scold him with another kiss in return, right? So he leaned up, as much as he was allowed to with the stronger arms around his waist, and planted a soft kiss right against Mathias' lips again.

"B-but if I don't get sick, how about we maybe.. go out together instead? I mean, to maybe... some place. Together. You know... Umn, you and me. I wouldn't be lonely, and you wouldn't be lonely... not if we went somewhere together. Maybe we can.. discuss that after you wake up... ..but I owe you a song, right?"

There, that wasn't too vague, was it? The kiss at least should have set some... context in to things. He was just too nervous to hear what Mathias thought about them actually dating or... being out in public together. Maybe he wouldn't ever want to be seen out with a nerd! There was nothing about him that could be considered chic or cool or...

He nestled in to Mathias' neck out of embarrassment.

"A-anyway..."

He took a deep breath.

"See päev, kui sa surd... Ei oldnuki valus, ma naersin, ja laulsin, õhtuni välja..."

So instead, he closed his eyes and sang. He knew that Mathias wouldn't know or understand the song, but he could hopefully appreciate the tones and softness.

"...Ju mai ei taednud, milks ilm, oli pilves, ja peegli sees pragu... polnudki paista..."

[MATHIAS ANDERSEN]

“…I’ve always wanted someone to sing for me… my mom never did because she claimed to sing like a banshee… I guess that’s where I got my own singing talents from…” He smiled embarrassedly to himself, he did enjoy singing, especially when he was in shower, but he knew his singing was quite off tune and not really pleasant to one’s ear, even his own. Sometimes he wished that he could at least sing somewhat, but singing talent didn’t just magically show up. Did it?

Mathias found that Eduard’s moving around for what seemed like hours-- was distracting enough to pull him away from his thoughts about his own crappy singing. And to tell the truth, Mathias found Eduard’s wiggling both adorable and unsettling at the same time. What if he was trying to get away so he could sing Mathias his lullaby before running off to play on his computer or something?

But Mathias was quite pleased when he settled on a position that was comfortable enough for the both of them. And Eduard seemed so light and maybe even somewhat unsure when he touched his chest, and Mathias could hardly contain his glee when Eduard shifted upwards to kiss him a second time. Eduard’s simple, short kisses seemed to fill his stomach’s with all these silly little butterflies and he had no idea why. He never really remembered ever being the type to get these feelings in his stomach!

What did this mean? Did this mean he too was developing a crush of some kind? Wouldn’t it be kind of… quick though? He thought back to when he first met Eduard, back when he broke Eduard’s camera. At one moment Eduard had grabbed a hold of his face and was uttering something to him about people finding out that they were super-powered teenagers. He suddenly remembered that even then, he had some bubbles popping in his stomach. It wasn’t as bad as they were now, but maybe, only slightly, he found the other teen somewhat endearing, even all those days ago. Maybe he’d only slightly been keeping his eye on Eduard… but he wasn’t too certain about that one anymore. Either way, Eduard was here with him now, and that was what was important right?

“So if you do get sick you’ll be too mad to date me then? And here I was really looking forward to going out with you… Maybe you should wear a face mask so you don’t get sick!” Mathias let a small laugh, “But sure, we can go out somewhere… Even though there really isn’t much to around here, I’m sure we can figure something out, right?” He placed his chin on top of Eduard’s head when he pressed into his neck. At first he wasn’t sure if he really liked the way that felt, because let’s just face it, Mathias had never ever even felt anyone do something like that to him. But it wasn’t very long at all before he really grew to enjoy Eduard’s head being there. The breath against his neck made him like it even more, along with the feeling of his features, it was almost as if Mathias could feel everything Eduard was going to say before he said it, and he didn’t know why, but the feeling made him feel somewhat light-headed with happiness. (Not that he wasn’t light-headed before, mind you.)

But he really didn’t start feeling light-headed until Eduard started singing. Shoot. The boy was good. There was no denying it. He was really good. He was so good in fact, that it was a few seconds before the hairs on his arms and the ones on the back of his neck were standing up, and the chills running down his spine caused him to have goose bumps. Not that it really helped that Eduard was singing into his neck either.

In a reaction to this though, Mathias wrapped himself even more tightly around Eduard, (if that was even possible at this point) and buried his face into the top of his head, before murmuring quietly, “No person I’m going out with is going to be speaking Swedish though... I’ll teach you Danish…” He shut his eyes lightly against Eduard’s sweet smelling hair, feeling somewhat rude for interrupting his song, but he felt the need to say that, as well as…

“You sing awesomely… thank you…” But he swore to himself that that was the last thing he was going to say to Eduard… and it was. Because soon he found himself slipping away into the Estonian song, and even though he had no idea what in the world Eduard was even singing, or saying, whatever it was, it was actually working to put him to sleep. This meant a lot, because he had tried many times to go to sleep on his own, but every time he tried, there was something that was keeping him up. although he was never exactly sure what is was, besides the fact that he was extremely achy.

So this is what it’s like to hold someone you love isn’t it? Mathias thought idly to himself wondering slightly if a lot of couples did stuff like this. No, no… He couldn’t think that just yet, him and Eduard weren’t a couple. Eduard was just helping him feel better wasn’t he? A lot of people did stuff like this when they were caring for the sick!

Oh who was he kidding… He would just deal with things when he woke up. Right now he just needed to keep a hold of Eduard and make sure that he didn’t sneak away before he finished his song, even though Mathias had the sneaking suspicion that Eduard would still be there when he woke up. Hopefully neither of them moved around too much in their sleep.

And…and… his thoughts completely died out, and before long Mathias Andersen was finally asleep.

[eesti]

"It's better than that she never sang for you... Exposed to such bad things at a young age may have made you tone deaf."

Since he was a baby, Eduard was always surrounded by music and song. His parents both sung to him, and he was always in music classes as long as he'd been in school for regular education. His talent was... Well, nobody ever considered it much of a talent there. He wasn't steps away from competing in Eesti Laul or anything, though he was flattered that the Dane maybe considered his singing something special. It was sort of sad he lived a life devoid of music as a kid...

At least the kiss distracted himself, distracted them both. It was nice to be this close to someone, to be warm and feel accepted and loved... Well, loved was maybe an overstatement at this point, but that was what was basically going on anyway! On some level, it was just the acceptance and kindness Mathias showed toward him that made him feel this way. Why was he so handsome and popular and not some total jerk? It made no sense, but Eduard was glad that it didn't.

And then when he mentioned he was looking forward to going out with Eduard too... Well, Mathias wasn't the only one with butterflies in his stomach. The creatures in Eduard's stomach felt more like birds though, attacking and pecking and destroying him from the inside because they wanted to make nesting material out of his innards. ...Less violent though, perhaps, because he only felt happy and felt like smiling himself silly whenever Mathias spoke.

"I'll... ...I won't get sick. I'll try not to because I'd... I'd like it if we did.. date and... everything."

He forced an awkward laugh with the Dane's comment about there not being anything to do around here. He never really... had dates or friends to go out with, so he didn't know but... They'd find something to do! They had to, right? Their poor budding relationship was now dependent on if they could ever connect more and do things together, wasn't it? It just... would be very, very bad, if he got sick from Mathias. He usually was sick enough in a year and normally forced himself through class anyhow... He didn't need that on his plate along with everything else going on.

So he focused everything he could in to singing for Mathias.

All of his feelings and emotions, even though he was so happy right now, all came out in to the melancholic song. When Mathias complimented him with a murmur about him singing awesomely... Well, his cheeks flushed a dark red. At least Mathias couldn't see he'd made Eduard blush, but hopefully he didn't notice he made Eduard stutter a bit either.

"N-nüüd liivad ei lõppe, mu kahetsus kõrbes... ja vananduskõned, tüünides eksind... Pähe teeb pesa, üks mürgine mõte... et ma olen süüdi... ...viimases valus..."

Each word he spoke kept getting lower and lower as he realized the other blonde's breathing was getting steadier. Sure enough, when he was able to glance up, he noticed that Mathias had finally fallen asleep.

It... put Eduard in a bit of an awkward position, however.

With Mathias asleep... He still held the tight hold around the Estonian's waist. There was no escaping it. Eduard was always a bit of an insomniac before, so while maybe his body was exhausted when he laid down with Mathias, his mind was still reeling.

He rested his head down on to Mathias' shoulder and sighed.

When he began to sing again, his voice was barely a whisper. He had no idea of the meaning of the lyrics, just remembering it was from some popular Danish singer, and he had a good enough ear to catch on to the words... So it was worth a try.

"Nogle gange bli'r jeg virkelig bange for hvad der ka' ske med dig... du' så lille og så god men den store verden er så fej... jeg ved jo godt, du' ved at være voksen, og jeg er sikker på, du godt kan passe på dig selv..."

He groaned a bit internally. His glasses were nudging uncomfortably against his nose and there was nothing he could do about it without possibly losing them forever...

"Men denne tid har gjort mig paranoid..."

He hugged on to the Dane again, his hand back on Mathias' chest. He'd just keep singing until falling asleep himself eventually, Eduard guessed, but there wasn't much else to do anyway.

"Og jeg vil ik' leve uden dig..."